Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Nope. No feelings.

Started to feel
felt a rip
reached for the drawer
grabbed my scrip
tears choked me
I gagged on the pills
but needed to stop
the bleeding that spills
into my bones
floods my mind
relentless, cruel
pounding, unkind
turned it off
like I was taught
within this whirlwind
I won't be caught
I refuse to look
at the reality
that keeps coming back
and tormenting me

Everything just simmers there inside me, scorching me with unknowing and uncertainty. I am afraid to feel because I don't know what is right or appropriate. I am afraid.

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