Feeling like a failure

I feel like such a failure today.

I stayed up WAY too late last night (actually this morning - until after 3 o'clock) knowing I had an 11:30 session with Michelle. During that time, I was also drinking; didn't help.

So I drank too much and stayed up to late, then the sound on my phone went off again (it's been doing that now for the past few weeks - the sound just shuts off so I don't hear any alarms or notifications) so I overslept and missed my appointment.

I really needed this appointment and now I feel like I've lost my best friend or something. Like I really screwed up.

So much is going on my head feels like it's spinning already...I really, really desperately needed this appointment.

Dammit.