Whatever it is

Help me.

I am so scared.

I don't even know where to start. I can't clear my head, can't stop these crazy feelings.

Help me.

I feel so overwhelmed. Grief, rage.

Help me.

Like a ping pong ball, I go back and forth between loving him and hating him.

Help me.

Help me to stop blaming myself and help me to move forward.

Help me, please, because I feel so lost. My body is exhausted. My mind won't stop.

Help me - whatever it is: God, Universe, Nature.... - help me, please. I don't know what to do. I keep making these mistakes but then I shred myself inside for them because I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.

Help me...please........

I feel so alone.

I am so afraid.

How do I do this?